Apr 15, 2005

LOW

Damn it! i'm at the lowest point of my mood today, didn't feel like doing anything. Even going online doesn't feel right. I wanted to do something that's not soitaire. I wanted to go out at night again. We are planning to go to JaRule concert, but april 21st is still a week from now, i wonder if i'll make it.....

Back then i have someone to talk to whenever i'm at my lowest mood, and that person sure has WORDS that can lift my mood up soooo high. She's not near now, and i don't want to became dependent of that person, so i'll just cope with this for a while. Who knows what could happen.

Did I Deserve It?

Did i deserve it
just because i'm poor
just because i'm ugly
just because i'm heavy

Did i deserve it
just because i'm not cool enough
just because i get nervous around a woman
just because the funny voice i have

Did i deserve it
just because i cursed a lot
just because i get easily jealous
just because i'm emotional

Did i deserve it
To be left alone out in the rain
Staring at an empty street where we used to be
wishing that you're al here with me

Did i deserve it?

Apr 12, 2005

What a HOT day Today

Brrrrr..........
i'm just writing to complain about the weather today. ITS FREAKING HOT!! it wasn't this hot when i leave to campus, but when i arrived there, it's like hell visits earth. thank goodness there were AirConds. im at internet cafe now. suddenly, the snail became the speedy, i just cant believe how fast the connection of the cafe today. And the aircond, oooh, just perfect considering the weather outside. im ordering my favourite, strawberry milk. havent eaten yet, maybe later at home.

i confused of what to do here, so i just chat at mirc. found this channel consisted of avril fans I LOVE IT!! i think i'll be there for some time now.

see ya.

Apr 11, 2005

Personality Disorder Test

I took this online personality disorder test just now and here are the result

Disorder Rating Information
Paranoid: Low click for info
Schizoid: Low click for info
Schizotypal: High click for info
Antisocial: Moderate click for info
Borderline: Moderate click for info
Histrionic: Moderate click for info
Narcissistic: Moderate click for info
Avoidant: Low click for info
Dependent: High click for info
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low click for info

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  • Apr 8, 2005

    Oh FRIENDS

    I'm not going to write about the popular series, i love the series but i'm not writing about it today. I'm writing about my real friends. I'm sure everyone has friends at different stages of your life, friends from elementary school, junior high, high school, university, hobby community, internet, etc. So do i. I'm writing about my friends whom i met at this game center called HT.

    I know the place, HT, back in 99. I played there when i have spare time (and money). I got to know the keepers first, Arya and Usman. Good fellas, Arya is a slim man, good moslem, more like a cool guy. Usman is more quiet at first, but as time goes, he became very talkative. Then i got to know Amink and Prio. Amink lives right across the street where HT was. Amink is a small white dude, with good body muscle, talkative, a bit snobbish sometimes. Prio, is primus lookalike, he is more calm, owns motorcycle, a great friend in ups and downs. Then came Bejo, Riyan, Didit, Erick, Aryo, Ulay, nando and Welly. I can't describe these names, it would take a whole day. Let's just say that they're good friends.

    As the number increase, we started to play soccer together. from soccer came the names of late Bagus, Doko (riyan's big brother), Egent, Azhan (bejo's younger bro), Herou, Wahyu, Ian, Rio, Kesle, Dade, Wiwi, Apun, Beng-beng, Pidonk, Aboy. What a party eh? These names from the top are the people i used to spend time with, either it's playing soccer, hang out, go out riding motorcycles, play card game (no gambling), being naughty, etc. for the note, we did it all TOGETHER, not all names though, i think Bejo, Prio, riyan, and me hangs out more together than the others.

    I Missed it. I missed the togetherness. Now they go out whitout even asking me if i want to come along, they do stuff without including me in. It's not like i'm jealous, i just loves the idea doing things together, i like the idea of solidarity, i'm a social person, what more can i say. I guess you can never expect so much out of humans......................

    Apr 5, 2005

    AVRIL LAVIGNE BONEZ TOUR 2005 JAKARTA CONCERT REPORT (I WAS THERE, WERE YOU?)

    Let's start off with.........
    What's the average time of a concert lasts? one hour? an hour and a half? or maybe two hours? And how many songs were played in a concert? 10? 15? 20? These are what mostly used to tell whether a concert can be rated as poor, fair, good or superb. To me, it's not how long a concert lasts or how many songs played that makes a concert rate, it's the performance of the artist, the quality of the artist or band when singing live.

    Avril Lavigne's Bonez tour 2005 concert in Jakarta on April 4th 2005 can be rated either Brilliantly Superb (Subjectively speaking, for i am a BIG fan of her) or satisfyingly good (Objectively speaking). Avril concert that night lasted for about 70 minutes long. Too short you say? Yes, but if you were there, it doesn't feel like a short concert time. Avril and the band gave out their best on that 70 minutes or so, and the only thing that can be called "minus" was the sound system. The stage was big, with black backdrop and Red Avril's Star as the background, and absolutely powerful lightning, makes the stage simple yet Amazing. The sound system made feedbacks on couple of songs, lost the lead guitar sound on couple of songs, and what's important was how Avril's voice sounded more loud than the band's music (a critic for Java Musikindo).

    Av kicks off the show with the latest single of her second album "under my skin", "He Wasn't". Av was wearing a black tanktop with Freedom written on it, Blue jeans and a pair of sneakers. "My Happy Ending" came second on the playlist. from there, getting too excited to sing along, i lost count of the playlist. I forgot the order! (damnit, i should've wrote it down). Overall, Av and the band played 19 songs. They are "Take Me Away", "Together", "Don't Tell Me", "Nobody's Home", "Forgotten", "Who Knows", "Things I'll Never Say", "Freak Out", "I Always Get What I Want", "Tomorrow", "Losing Grip", "Sk8er Boi", "I'm With You", Blur's "Song 2", and ends the concert with "Complicated".

    Av plays guitar on several songs, plays piano on "Together" and "Forgotten", plays accoustic on "Tomorrow", and plays drum on Blur's "Song 2". Vocal for Blur's "Song 2" was taken over by her rythm Guitarist.

    There were pickpocketeers on location. Java have warned the crowd to be aware of our belongings. At the break waiting for the preparation of Av's Piano session, one of the Java's men shouted "check your valuable belongings like cellphone and wallet! Pickpocket sighted!". I don't know if they caught the pickpocket eventually, cause i'm busy enjoying the concert.

    Back to Avril. Av's surely shows the crowd how talented she was, and what an awesome performer she was. Her vocal quality was perfect! Am i satisfied you ask? well.....to have seen her live for the first time sure do quench my thirst, but i can never get enough of Avril Lavigne. for the time being, i'm overly satisfied.
    That's all on the report, sorry for any mistakes i made for i am only human who makes mistakes. Thank you very much to Java Musikindo for making my dream come true, thanks to Dian Taksi (i took 'em both on my journey), and everyone who helped me (in whatever that is heheheheh). See you in the next report.

    ROCK ON ROCK ON!!!!